Tuesday, August 11, 2015

When I'm This Pissed Off, I Just Need to Run

Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody's power and is not easy.-- Aristotle

Something happened tonight that made me so angry that all I could think to do was run. Unfortunately, I am in for the night and running is not an option. I am forced to think about my run tomorrow morning and write about it tonight. In general, when I run, I run happy. My mind isn't clear because "the run" is where I do the majority of my thinking. When I am not running is when I am doing; everything that I just thought about while running.

In the past, I would get uncontrollably angry and punch walls or break stuff or drive recklessly. None of those things are productive. For years now, since I've been running, virtually every emotion is organized on the run. I think about love for my wife and kids on the run. I know some of you may be thinking, just love who you love. That is true but only partially. The same way one must clear their minds when they are angry, one must also have a clear mind for happiness, sadness, confusion, and whatever emotion comes to mind.

If you go out on a run with something on your mind, likely you will have a clearer picture when the run is complete. Let's say you're thinking about proposing. Go for a run and think on it. When you return, the picture will be more vivid. Sometimes there could be a death in the family and your run will help you let  out those emotions. Truth be told, I cried on the morning of my graduation. It took me 18 years to get my degree but i finally finished it. I didn't cry in front of people but I did on the run... so technically I'm still a tough guy. I was so overcome with joy and the thought of everything I went through to make it that I couldn't hold it in.

It is actually therapeutic right now getting some of this out in the ether but I will need to hit the road in the morning to get my emotional state back to normal. My wife would claim that I am never actually normal. I don't know any runners that are.

2 comments:

  1. There is definitely something about a run and solitude that fosters thinking.

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    1. Oftentimes people are so afraid of loneliness that the benefits of solitude are forgotten. Thanks for reading.

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